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Happy Birthday, Kolton

Happy Birthday, Kolton

Today you would be twenty-seven. I used to wonder where you’d gone, but not anymore. You are here, right where you’ve always been, in my heart. Now I wonder where I’ve gone. I can’t seem to find myself. This day is always hard for me, and I’m […]

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Run Through the Wall

Run Through the Wall

Trying to finish my novel has brought me a great deal of anguish and uncertainty. I just can’t seem to stay with it long enough to finish. The novel is done but the rewrites seem endless. I hope this self-reflection will propel me. At least, this is […]

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July 21, 2017

July 21, 2017

Each moment of sorrow strips another layer from my ego and leaves my soul more exposed. Stripping away layers of ego leaves me more open to life’s magic, beauty, love, and the desire to hold nothing in reserve. Why wait? I have suffered heartache, but who hasn’t? […]

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Another Letter to My Son

Another Letter to My Son

It is a quiet morning, except for the long, early morning echo of the train’s horn along the hollow of my heart; it is going to be a reflective, meditative day, I can tell, because whenever I wake up this early missing you so intensely, with such […]

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What I Took Away From My Last Marathon

What I Took Away From My Last Marathon

Well, the Denver Rock ‘n’ Roll Marathon is history, but I always try to take away something from every marathon I run. I found this marathon grueling, but I’m not sure why. I haven’t spoken to anyone else who ran the marathon, so I really don’t have […]

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Why I Run

Why I Run

In June of 2010, I ran the Casper Marathon; it wasn’t my first marathon, nor would it be my last. But it will probably be my most memorable marathon because my son, Kolton, and my Dad were both at the finish line to greet me when I […]

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A Letter to My Son

A Letter to My Son

Whenever I awaken from my dreams of you, a deep sadness overcomes me. I don’t know how I am pulled into these dreams, those dreams that bring me peace, but I do know that those comfortless moments that linger at the edge of my dream, that come […]

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There Is No Sun Without Shadow

There Is No Sun Without Shadow

“There is no sun without shadow, and it is essential to know the night.” –Albert Camus Albert Camus in The Myth of Sisyphus sees the question of suicide as a natural response to an underlying premise, namely that life is absurd. Both the presence of life and […]

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Do we live in a tidy or untidy universe?

Do we live in a tidy or untidy universe?

It is an interesting question, one that we don’t ask ourselves very often. Maybe it should be the one pressing question on everyone’s mind. But you might ask, “why is it important?” If we live in an untidy universe, one in which chaos rules, then all this […]

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